Jerus had normal detail to tend these past days which left me back on my usual routine of tending children.. treating bumps, bruises and cuts.. making dinner and cleaning. While straightening up the wagon from one of Wily's romps... there camp a knock on my wagon. I poked my head out to find a Young Tuchuk girl I had known since She born. Wani was about Shanay's age and had been Mated for about two turnings. I could see She was troubled and checked for any immediate dangers of an injury or signs of blood. Wani was quiet and simply asked if we could talk. I escorted Her into the wagon and we sat down. Her tears began to fall as She told me what was bothering Her. "Silken.. I dont think He loves me anymore..." She said. "Wani.. How could you say such. Your beautiful and a great Mate." I said. "He use to tell me He would love me forever, Silken. Now.. I have to fight for His attention. There is always something else on His mind or He always has something more important to do. Do you know... He had a long detail of trench duty last hand that kept Him from me for so long... and when it was over... He found something else to occupy His time." Wani shook Her head and I leaned in to touch Her arm gently and smiled. "Men are strange Young One... One Ehn they make you feel like the greatest gift in life and the next they turn and make you feel like a worn out old rep cloth... I do not think His love for you has changed" I said. Wani looked at me and frowned... "But He promised forever.. there was a time when He could not live without me... now it seems He cannot live WITH me. He use to run to me and He couldnt keep from touching me... I was so happy then" I shook my head... "No Wani.. Im sure that isnt it at all" Wani sighed and swirled Her fingers in the furs.. whispering... " I am thinking of leaving Him, Silken... I am not happy. And if He cannot see this.. and fix this... then how am I to make a life for us?" I didnt know what to say to that.. but offered what I could... "This is a decision only you can make Wani... but think about it good and hard. Is this truely what you want?" Wani cried more and spoke in broken gasps... " I cannot be without Him.... but He doesnt care of my feelings.. after so many times of this... it is starting to turn me further away from Him... I feel.. He has lost me." "Now...now.. " I said.. patting Her hand... "It isnt always as bad as it seems Young One... perhaps your just looking too deeply into these things." Wani didnt let me finish as She stood up and looked down at me... I could see the anger in Her eyes... " You dont understand Silken !! You just dont understand what Im going through ! " With that outburst.. Wani stomped from the wagon and headed down the rows... I had stood to follow.. but paused at the wagon platform... there were no words that could comfort little Wani... nothing I said could help Her... this was something She needed to work out on Her own... though I would be there if She needed. Her final words kept bouncing around in my head... that ....I didnt understand... and I whispered as I watched Her disappear within the rows....
I understand young Tuchuk....
Forever.... isnt as long as it used to be.
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